In My Head

If someone could see what was going on in my head, they would be extremely confused. My thoughts are jumbled up pieces of my life that I cannot seem to let go of. For one thing, there's an ex-boyfriend. He's on my mind all the time though I refuse to let anyone know that. I never thought that one person could mean so much to you at such a young age. He's all I cared about, and for the longest time I thought that was for the best. I thought I was all he cared about, but I was wrong.

My friends and their well-being consumes my thoughts as well. I think about Kaitlin, Emily, Maggie, Kelsie, and Harrison. I hope Kaitlin finds happiness. I know that's all she's ever wanted, and she deserves it. I think about Emily and I hope that she will get into NCSSM. I think about my friends because I go through the day seeing them and hearing their thoughts.

The one thing that consumes my mind the most is my future. I think about where I'm going to go to college- if I go to college. Or I should be saying if I get in. What am I going to do with my life? I don't think I'm a good enough writer to pursue a career in being a journalist or writer. I have a loud voice, but what can  I do with that? How will I know what's right for me? Will I take advantage of it when the opportunity arises? Will I ever stop worrying about it?